
Migraine. A simple word. A horrific pain. An interruption of life. I can honestly say migraines are a part of my life I absolutely hate. Absolutely.
When I was approximately five years old, the pediatrician diagnosed me with migraines. These horrible monsters that can absolutely bring life to a near screeching halt. I do know when one will strike, never the less, as I get one of those 'auras' as they say. A migraine, in me, always...ALWAYS starts with an excruciating pain directly behind my left eye. Never a pain in my temple, right eye, top of the head, just in the left eye. It's a very distinct pain. You can bet when this pain starts, which feels like something sharp is being jabbed into my eyeball, I am reaching for the painkillers and preparing for battle. Because I know in the matter of a few minutes, it will go from a severe headache into a full blown migraine.
I read when I was a teenager, in some magazine, that a person that has migraines should name it. Give it an identity and face it head on. So, when I was about fifteen years old, I named her Molly Migraine. I don't know why I picked such a sweet name for such an unkind hurt. I don't think it has ever helped to name her, I still hate migraines, I still hate the pain and feelings that ravage my body. I still hate the fact I have had to fight Molly for nearly 32 years of my life. What a waste of my time!!!
If you've never experienced a migraine, you are blessed. If you haven't you don't know how bad the pain can catapult. If you have experienced a migraine, I'm sorry that you also know the excruciating pain associated with these.
I do seek help though. I have been prescribed an array of pills, been given a variety of shots, have used everything from over-the-counter cure alls, to herbal remedies, and everything in between. Amazing what my body has endured trying to just cope. I do get irritated at the people that say they had a 'migraine' and took two TYLENOL and it was gone in a few minutes....oh, P-l-e-a-s-e!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yep, wish it were that simple, folks....
I try to avoid the circumstances that can trigger them in me. Like the heat, too much sunshine. Cigarette smoke. MSG, an ingredient found in a lot of foods. My stuffy sinuses can also play a key part. The ultimate factor...S-T-R-E-S-S. I am usually wound for sound and it takes a lot for me to wind down. I worry about everything from money (who doesn't), my children's safety (a typical mom), our jobs (thankful we are both still employed), and the list goes on for miles. I really need to learn to "Let go and let GOD". I do know, through faith, the only reason my migraine goes away is because of the Lord's healing touch. When I am in the quiet, still moments of fighting, when my ears just possibly cannot handle another noise, my eyes cannot filter anymore light, my head cannot handle the slightest movement...I feel HIM comforting me. I know for a fact that HE gives me the strength I need to battle against this entity that has entered my body, uninvited. And I know that eventually,'this too shall pass'.
I battled against Molly Migraine's excruciating pain once again. I woke up at 3:30 am Friday morning with an intense pain drilling my left eye and I knew that before the alarm sounded, I was in trouble. It is routine for me to vomit during the really intense ones. If i do, it will generally allow the pain to let up and eventually release. I have been desperate enough to induce vomiting myself with the results being not what I had hoped for as it will make it much, much worse. My body has to induce itself. That's what happened in the middle of the night (early this morning) and now I am bounced back to near normal. I experience a bad headache after it's gone and feel extremely weak the next day. Usually exhausted from my body doing battle against itself. That is exactly what it feels like too, as I feel like I've been dragged behind a truck!!
But like I said, "This too shall pass" and it always does. In the big scheme of things, it only hurts for a 'little while', it's just that when during that 'little while' it feels like forever!!